Showing posts with label Dream Journal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dream Journal. Show all posts

Monday, March 24, 2014

Dream journal 3/24/14



The space between getting up to let the dogs out, sometime between 2:30 and 3:30 AM, and hitting the final snooze, usually around 5 or 5:15, has become filled with very odd dream snippets. I suppose dreams tend to be odd by their very nature, but I’ve begun to be more and more aware of the dreams as they’re happening, and remembering more than usual afterward. So this morning there were dreamlets in which I was driving the old highlander and the brakes failed and I rear-ended what looked like a pickup truck full of Okies and their worldly possessions piled high on it; I may have pranged some kid’s bike. In another I was without my wallet for some reason, then found it on the grass. 

My favorite from this morning (I do remember thinking (in the dream) “I must remember this one, it’s good!”) 

So I was (in the dreamlet) standing talking to Neil deGrasse Tyson, and though I don’t remember specifically I’ve no doubt I was fascinated and thrilled because I admire the guy enormously. He was wearing a cape or academic robe of some sort, very dashing. Some nut job came up to us (apparently either a creationist or a Plutonian) and brandished a long knife (or a short sword, coulda been either, the dream wasn’t terribly clear on that point). Tyson whipped off his cape (or robe) and without missing a beat, in matador fashion whirled it around the attacker, enveloping him totally, rendering his blade useless. Then he (Tyson) looked at me and I looked at him and we laughed, and laughed and laughed, and I said “and you didn’t even need a veronica!”

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Dream Journal 6/4/2013 - So it's been since April I haven't posted. Shame on me.

Twice in the past week or so I've had a similar dream, or sequence of dreams. I'm on some sort of campus, with many buildings of differing ages and architectures, and apparently differing functions. There are lots of other people around but they do not seem to be aware of me, or at least not concerned with my existence. They also don't seem to be engaged in any communal or concerted effort - they all seem to be to-ing and fro-ing on their own individual agendas (what's the Latin plural for a plural?). The thing about this "campus" - a word I choose solely because it describes a plot of land with a clump or cluster of related buildings, not because I think the nature of the place was academic, though it might well have been, I never did really identify the place to myself - the thing about it was that the buildings seemed to have been sort of strewn higgledy-piggledy around the landscape of the place, with little or no attention to connections between and among the buildings. And their relative positions kept changing, or else (worse yet) the buildings themselves kept changing, and when I left one and passed by others, then had to return to the one I'd left, there was no way to find it. Neat quadrangles (there's that academia connection) turned into rock-strewn paths through the woods; then the rock-strewn paths turned into steep downhill paths, still among rocky outcrops. Buildings were placed randomly among seemingly derelict patches of woods and trees. In no case could I return to where I'd started, and someone was waiting there for me; not sure who nor what for, but it was important to my dreaming self, and it was the driver of the dream - getting back. And it couldn't be done, "back" seemed either no longer to exist, or else it had moved, or else it had shifted shape so as to be unrecognizable.

There wasn't any water in this dream though. But it was disconcerting to my dreaming self.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Dream Journal 3/30/13

An odd snippet this, in the little piece of sleep grabbed occasionally between the 0400 dog-tending rise, and a more sensible (0500) time to engage with waking life. It involved a farm conveyance of some kind, with a flat bed and a steering wheel mounted ahead of the bed, with a hand throttle and brakes that made the front wheels turn hard left. We (a wife was present, and though I don't remember getting a good look at her, I'm pretty sure she was my real wife) were promised a gleaning opportunity in some farmer's cornfield. We started out in the whatever-kind-of-wagon-it-was, confident that we knew where the cornfield of interest was. In the first leg of the trip out, I rode on the flatbed and the wagon seemed to propel and guide itself. Then I discovered the controls, down and in front, so I mounted down there and drove. I turned it down a dirt road and realized I had no idea where we needed to be going. The road was through woods and we came upon a group of kids - adolescents and pre-adolescents, say between 10 and 14 - I don't know how many of them; mixed boys and girls, perhaps a dozen of them but again not sure because I don't remember actually seeing them in the dream, more overhearing their conversation. Then I saw a car, perhaps a 1950s or 60s station-wagon but not identifiable as to make or year, with a large treelimb on it, roof caved in, windshield broken. I'm driving this wagon/tractor conveyance and I hear one of the boys saying to one of the girls something about "I'm a full-grown adult male and I don't need..."

It was at this point that my dreaming self started getting a little lucid and realized that whatever was going on in this dream, it wasn't going to wind up pleasantly. Then the five o'clock alarm went off, and rather than hit the snooze, I was glad to be rescued from that particular dream.

How odd that I felt that way; nothing bad or threatening had happened, really, but the dreamed components of that particular setting and circumstances made my dreaming self uneasy, and I was glad to be out of there.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

It's raining again dammit, October has turned into what November used to be

weatherwise. I got a few hours work into the shed yesterday (cold but sunny) so got about 25% of the sheathing up on the roof. All the sheathing is up on the walls except for a couple dabs over & under the rough openings for the doors. The nastiness of the change in late-season weather around here lately is threatening to put an early kibosh on the shed project, but I should be able to get the sheathing up and a protective covering of 15# felt (tar paper) on it to hold off the winter. Then some improvised door coverings - not sure what to do about the stuff in the old shed: I don't think it'll hold up another winter.

The Fiction Writing Group is evolving well; sad to have lost two of our early mainstays though we hold out hope that they'll rejoin at some point (who knows) - I think the notion of writing occupies a different place in the life & priorities of each of us. The ACT of writing is a whole different proposition from the notion of writing of course and therein lies the explanation for the fact that many of us can manage to get it together for a few hours twice a month, but not for the hour or two (or more) a day to actually be as productive as we'd like to. I include myself in this "unable to be as disciplined as we'd like to be about actually writing" crowd, but I'm working on it.

Dream Journal - another odd dream involving a house and water. The house was, as is typical of these dreams, not actually my house - as if, in the dream, my house was being played by another house. And water was collecting on the floor around a ratty old toilet (not in the least resembling either of the toilets in my ACTUAL house). I vacuumed it up with the shop vac (handy thing that wet-dry shop vac). Then it got wet again. Then I woke up & checked the actual toilet and it was fine. Then the dogs had to go out (it was about 0400) so I fed 'em & let 'em out for a minute, then went back to bed and had another snippet of a (completely unrelated) dream the details of which escape me but it involved a car (not mine) crashed into a brick wall and a search for some fugitive or other who was discovered hiding in a recess in the brick wall above. Or something like that - it wasn't completely clear to me where the guy was actually hiding; someone got their hands on him & dragged him out. Then I woke up.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Dream Journal 1/7/12

Another product of a tag-end of sleep. I was driving an old-time VW beetle. I can't say what year for sure, but it was white, and I did own a white one, a '62 or '64 or so, I think. Anyway, I was driving across a very long bridge; then it was snowing like hell, and then there was snow in the road up to your yayas. The bug performed well, even unto dodging around other vehicles abandoned in the right-of-way, necessitating detouring into yards-deep snowbanks. How the little beetle did it I have no idea, must have been my superior driving skill. Then it got bogged down trying to make it around a large piece of non-automobile machinery in the middle, after passing through a thoroughly red light at an intersection (brakes failed to stop it, fortunately the roadway through the intersection was snow-free and there was no visible traffic for miles in any direction.)

Then woke up.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Dream Journal 12/7/11

It was raining out, and I'd just come back from the Wally-the-dog's 0230/0315/or-so pee call, and crawled back for the last few minutes of shut-eye. I've noticed lately that these little tag-ends of sleep after the dog call seem to produce some odd snippets of dreams, but nothing I've been able to track down for recording purposes. This morning though, I guess the rain triggered some dream artifacts, so it was raining in the dream, and I was at someone else's house (dreams for me always seem to take place elsewhere, often at a house that is not my "real waking life" house, but that sometimes is "supposed" to be, in the context of the dream. In this case it was supposed to be someone else's house, and I know the person whose house it was supposed to be, and I know their house too, and this was NOT it, by any stretch. But I was in their bathroom, and it was messy, and the rain was coming in, and the water level on the floor was rising a bit more quickly than was comfortable, and then I woke up.

A lot of my dreams lately are concerned with water being where it shouldn't be. Wonder what that means? Wonder if dreams really do mean anything?

Monday, June 6, 2011

Dream Journal 6/5/11

So there I was, in a new work situation, and my boss had a specific assignment for me, which he called me about on the phone and told me to come to his office, which I couldn't find, and the plant was spread out over the top of a derelict city - as in superimposed - the skin & bones of the dead city were still in place, and the facilities of the company were here & there in between. The twists and turns of the old city's streets and alleyways and the empty, abandoned diners, luncheonettes, convenience stores (though they were all of a style we would more likely term "mom & pop stores" - of a bygone era, not like 7-11s) and so on were VERY creepy. I couldn't locate my boss's office, nor figure out how to call him on the phone. I wandered a lot, and was some stressed. I"m not sure whether this was lucid or not; not sure either what woke me, nothing particularly shocking or threatening happened in the dream, it was just very frustrating and WAY creepy.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Dream Journal 4/6/11 - a fragment

It was my mother's place, but of course she's been dead for 20 years (she wasn't dead in the dream, but she was played by someone else, some old woman I've never seen before). And of course though the house was hers in the dream context it had nothing to do with any house I ever knew about that she lived in. But the main thing was there were hornets and bees ALL OVER the place, and I kept asking if there was hornet spray (very specifically "hornet spray" not "bug spray" or "insecticide" or "Flit") and she kept saying "I'll get some tomorrow" and I remember the dreaming me thinking "Tomorrow hell, I'm not sleeping in this place with all these frickin' bugs flying around" and then a pipe that ran up alongside the stairs from down somewhere started leaking water UP. And I saw that and thought "Wait a minute, how can that pipe leak UP?" and I woke up.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Dream Journal 1/29/11

This was a story that - sadly - had deep roots in the software industry and what is referred to as the "life-cycle." It doesn't specifically refer to the life-cycle though, it just reflects it. In the dream, I am chatting with our CEO, who is a very bright, astute guy. He asked me what tool our IT group uses for data backups of our servers. Not an illogical question to ask me, but not really my bailiwick, I work with apps that live on the servers, and IT owns boxes, OSes and connectivity. (Also not terribly likely that the CEO would be chatting with me about anything, he knows me but we don't see each other much as we work in different buildings). So anyway I told him I had no idea about the backups but I'd be glad to find out for him. So I set off on that journey. As I went our corporate "campus" turned into a humongous, Gormenghastian factory complex, down at the heels, with Steampunk machinery, cavernous spaces filled with the detritus of a century of industry, oily rags, rats, and so on. I located the information I needed, but it had morphed into not info about data backup on servers, but about a recent software tool evaluation I conducted. Since I hadn't pulled the notes & stuff on the eval into final form, all I had was "notes and stuff" but I slogged back through the medieval mire of the Factory to present the stuff to the CEO. In the interim he had aged such that he looked about 70 (he's really about 55 or 57). So we sat down and he started asking me about what kinda flux Carl was going to use when he started welding. Allova sudden Carl (I know no Carl, he is apparently a plumber) is sitting in the room and I ask "Are we talking about data backup or plumbing." "Plumbing," said Carl. "Shit," I said, "this must be a dream." So I woke up.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Dream journal – 11/1/2010

Two recent snippets survived waking. The first, which seem related to some others I've had over the past year or two, had to do with a rather nasty, decrepit house in which we were living ("we" being wife & I, though she didn't actually appear, but was present by implication, I guess). As in some others recently (year or two) the house was a huge, rambling affair that seemed to keep going in many directions, and didn't seem to "repeat itself" meaning if you went in a single direction then turned around and retraced your steps, you didn't actually come back the way you went originally, but through different hallways & staircases. Some outer walls did not actually exist, that is some rooms were open to the elements. People were living in seeming "apartments" though there were no definitive boundaries to these various apartments; they seemed to flow into each other. I'm pretty sure "we" owned the property, but none of the other inhabitants seemed to be very tenant-like, more like squatters. In this most recent incarnation of the setting (a few nights ago now) water was a big factor (no doubt as a result of the suggestion posed by the fact that our real-waking-life drain was acting up, putting some overflow on the cellar floor); seems like water would flow from walls and down staircases, etc. I should have recorded this sooner; I've lost what few details survived my awakening.

Last night, I was in a similarly rambling arrangement of rooms, but I was not the owner, nor even a regular tenant, but a casual guest, staying over for a night or two. I forget/never knew where I was going, but I was in the midst of a longish journey that I was eager to take up again. My "daughter" – and I don't know which one, I don't think it was one of my real daughters, none of them showed up as an actual character in the dream, it was a fictional daughter, had put my car somewhere, and the somewhere wasn't where I would have put it (apparently I knew my way around this particular dreamscape), nor was it easily findable, so I had to wait for her to return (whence I have no idea) before I could get on my way. I recall that in the dream, getting on my way again was a matter of some urgency to my dreaming self, I didn't like being where I was, and getting to where I was going was important. Daughter did not show up prior to final awakening. I do remember that at some point my dreaming self tried the "This is only a dream so I can make my dreaming self find the car" but I don't think it worked; I (the dreaming "I") did however stop fretting over "Getting on my way" since it realized "it's only a dream."

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Dream Journal 3/16/2010

So I was off in the hinterlands somewhere, driving a '72 Datsun that we used to own, that we bought for $200 from my sister (it was cheap because she got upset when the engine quit in right-hand turns).

I dunno why I was off where I was, but it seemed to be on some sort of business. I'd been there a few days and had to leave the tired old Datsun parked on a country road.

Getting ready to head back, I called home because there was a local eatery that was famous for its wieners & sauerkraut - it was in a barn. A real barn, not a kitschy kit-building made to look like a barn. I think it was named "Ray's."

Anyway I called home and for sure I was to bring home a bunch of weenies & a ton of kraut. On returning to the poor old Datsun in its roadside berth I discovered that the glass in the driver's door was shattered. Worse, on inspecting the front passenger door, I discovered that it (the whole door) was missing entirely. But it started up ok, so I figured it would get me home. I have NO IDEA how far home was in this dream but it appeared to be a bit of a trek & I was worried about arriving home with the car in such a nasty state.

(Here's where is gets good) - then my dreaming self - the one conscious of the state of things in the dream - realized that the Datsun has been gone from the scene of day-to-day reality for, oh, 30 years or so. So then it realized it was dreaming. Which led to the realization that since it was a dream, the broken window and missing door were ephemera that could simply be realized away. And THEN (the REALLY good part) it - my dreaming self - realized that since it was a dream it could ditch the Datsun altogether and drive home in the Highlander. Which it did. Then I woke up.

Jeezus.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

All I have to do is...

Not intending this to turn into a dream log, I just woke from an absolutely delightful one that I'd be glad to have recur, or continue. It involved me traveling somewhere strange to me, with a host of luggage on some sort of mobile baker's cart, navigating (of course) through an odd array of gates, stations, and mallishly arrranged stores and pubs and cafes. After picking up some lovely used books and magazines and adding them to my impedimenta, I began a slog "out" - though in the dream context I'm not exactly sure what "out" is; the whole setting was kinda THX-1138-ish - and was happened upon by a friendly middle aged (40-ish) blonde with a little-un in tow. Never seen her before, didn't know her from Adam's off ox, but I made some pleasantry about the bairn, and the next thing I knew, Mom had fallen in beside me and slipped her arm around my waist, all comradely-like. Fair enough, thinks the dreaming me, I am not one to shun female contact of just about any sort in just about any circumstances, so I slips my arm around her waist, just to show there's no hard feelings... well, not entirely true, but never mind that.

So the next thing I know her hand has slipped down a tad and she is groping my ass. Well, I thinks, I never!! Well, no, that's not at all what I thought (in my dream, mind you) what my dreaming self though was "Yow, I guess I'll feel HER ass up" and so I did, and ... well, some heavier occurrences ensued, involving even erogenouser zones, all the while both fully clothed and in public, and then I woke up. Really. So how do we make dreams recur again, I forget?

Friday, January 12, 2007

David Lynch & Neil Jordan, eat your hearts out

Well not really. I cite these two as topnotch purveyors of "dream" content in movies, and I fancied this post would be about dreams, but then who knows what it'll turn into. Recently, and not for the first time, I was treated (by my own subconscious, or wherever these things come from) to a dream populated by a couple of characters from my waking life, viz. some nieces (wife's nieces actually, but like many families we don't make those distinctions). These are young folks (college seniors) who are bright, cheerful and attractive. Interestingly, in the dream sequence they did not appear as themselves, but in fact they were "played" by two young females unknown to me; but I knew - i.e. my dreaming self knew - that these were the nieces, even though my dreaming self realized that "they" weren't really "them." Got it? So anyway, in the course of some rather pedestrian, unexciting action, one of the nieces whose back was turned to me, suffered a costume malfunction, and her jeans slid down exposing her (rather attractive) butt. My dreaming self thought, "How convenient that it isn't really [niece's name] so we don't have to be embarrassed." Perceptive chap, my dreaming self.
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But the real nub of the pith of the gist of today's symposium is recurring dreams.

I have not had this dream in many years. I wish I could remember reliably when the last time I had it was, but it was surely more than 10 years ago. But I had it a number of times during my 30s, I think. It was not always exactly the same dream – the “plot” and the “setting” varied. Interestingly, it was a progression of variations, such that the changes that would happen (or appear) in one instance, would continue through the next instance, and probably be built upon, with more variations – often slight - and so on. I should probably set it up – like most dreams, it has “hooks” in reality. In this case the realities in which the dream has hooks are two: one is the old “Adult Entertainment District” in Boston, known as “The Combat Zone” – for many years, lower Washington and Boylston Streets, down to Kneeland and Stuart, were more or less officially set aside as a place where strip joints and smut shops and hookers could operate more or less “unmolested” by the cops. One could walk down Washington and there was an unbroken gauntlet of sleazy bars & “bookstores” and adult theaters. In the late 50s there were just a few theaters and bars where no one ever went “all the way” (strippers in G-strings and pasties, movies were pretty much restricted to boob shots and simulated sex acts) but by the late 60s it was pretty much Katie-bar-the-door, up to and including (as one barmaid described it to me once) “getting your nut.” Oops, ‘scuse me, I was kinda drifting down memory lane there for a minute…

Anyway, the earliest occurrences of this dream seem (as near as I can recall – I don’t remember dreams very often to begin with, and the first occurrence of this one was probably over 30 years ago), I am walking down Washington St. (“down” here meaning in a general direction from Old South Meeting House toward Chinatown,for anyone who knows the neighborhood). The old “Publix” and “State” theaters are there, and lots of smutshops and stripjoints, and I go into a few of each, and browse, and have a beer and watch a girl get naked on stage. In none of these dreams did I ever go into any of the movie theaters, I don’t think. I wend my way down through the Combat Zone, fending off approaches by various more-or-less young females, all offering to do sexual things for me/to me, for money. When I get to the “bottom” of the CZ, somewhere around Stuart St., I usually wake up. OK, so no big deal in this dream, right, pretty clearly the workings of an oversexed (and under serviced) mind.

Here’s where the interesting thing comes in – I spent a year in Korea in the AF (10/1970-11/71). The main US airbase there is Osan, a few miles south of Seoul. Outside the gates of Osan is what’s known as “Chico Ville” or “Chicol Village” depending on how drunk/Americanized your references are. As you might suspect of a village just outside the gates of an American airbase housing about 10000 GIs, Chico had a significant population of what were called “business girls.” And they worked in a bunch of clubs, mostly – places with names like The Stereo Lounge, and “The A-Frame” (not after the chalet architecture, but after the piece of equipment that was standard for Korean peasant to use when lugging huge loads on their backs – sort of a papoose thing that strapped on and had a flat bed you could tie bundles of sticks or hay, or charcoal, or whatnot to.), “The Aragon Ballroom” (honest), and the “Five Spot.” The FiveSpot had five large rooms with dancefloors and room for up to a couple hundred hookers in each. In addition to these “clubs” there were guys who would approach one in the street and offer to lead you to some little hootch somewhere down in the maze of alleyways, and hook you up with a young lady who would do various things for you/to you, for a small fee*. Anyway – after I returned from this assignment, the next time I had this dream, the venue had changed, and it was Chico Ville instead of the Combat Zone, though some of the things that appeared in the dream (smutshops, particularly) were in fact absent from Chico. For a while I had this dream fairly regularly – maybe 6 or 8 times a year. Then, it began getting less and less frequent, and – this is very odd, but I swear it’s true – the “neighborhood” in which the dream took place started going downhill. Many of the joints would appear, but were boarded up, or simply empty. Many of the places that were open had older, and older and seedier and seedier looking girls lurking outside. I don’t remember when the last time I had the dream was, but it was quite some time ago, and I was sad that what had once been so pleasant and exciting a dream, had, like so many things as we get older, faded, and didn’t offer the least thrill anymore.

*All of this information about the Combat Zone, and Chico Ville is, of course, hearsay.